Half dead fr all e endless days of fixin appt, meetin prospects, goin thru reports.. So tirin.. For normal office hr jobs, at least u get wk ends off & also u're off after 5-6pm, but 4 us.. we wrk mornin, afternoon, evenin & nite.. Non-stop! Plus wkends somemore -_- Reli need some breaks every now & den, so stress.. Other den tis recently reli is repeat everythin over & over again. Luckily got my dear there to support me, not as sian. Learnt a lot of new things in investments & products, not to mention communication skills. I wanna keep improvin everyday, gettin better & better. I don't wanna c myself as a negative attraction, but instead I wanna impact ppl's lives. Fr e wrk I do, mayb? But not all ppl r open, hv been encounterin ppl cuppin my phone, & worse still - flyin BIG aeroplanes on me.. Haiz, veri demoralizin.. But tt's y i put my pic as "xiao qiang" ma - "da ye da bu si de" LoL~ ok time to zzz le, if nt tmr'll b half dead fr sleeplessness again..

Recently super busy, been goin appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts appts ENDLESSLY. Becomin an appt freak! -_- Everyday need to do daily reportin which is more or less lik a formal blog that i dun even hv time to blog here anymore so sian... But here better coz can complain :) whaha. Today finally decided to postphone my CM course 2nd half, and a few days ago my trading course. Reli is gotta chiong liao, it's do or die! Or do & die lol whichever way (die due to tiredness). Last wk almost everyday wrk 12hrs a day for continuous 7 days! Even superman will qiao qiao lo (fell sick a few days ago now ok liao). Ok my b day comin soon, hope everythin will start to trend up now tat i've prioritized my wrk & focus on my direction step by step. & reli hope by e end of 3 months i can finally reach my 1st short term goal~ wish me luck!

The Five Love Languages
Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others. Dr. Chapman's love languages are: Words of Affirmation, Quality Time, Receiving Gifts, Acts of Service, and Physical Touch.This quiz might help you work out which is your love language!

The QuizFor each pair of statements, choose the one that fits you best. For an accurate result, you should choose one from each pair. If you are not currently in a relationship, try to imagine what you would like from a potential partner or partners.

RESULTS

The Five Love Languages
Your primary love language is probablyPhysical Touchwith a secondary love language beingActs of Service.
Complete set of results

Physical Touch: 12

Acts of Service: 6

Quality Time: 6

Receiving Gifts: 3

Words of Affirmation: 3

Haha, nice quiz~

tonight's test was heaven for bacarrat & hell for roulette. I reli sux in my roulette xia. & b4 tt we were practicin lik mad lo. Jos even lucki worse, she very zai at 1st, den all e chickens fly in when nearin her turn LoL. But reli sia, my roulette got 5 mistakes lo, sian sian sian... mus practice lik siao til nov b4 e final exam comes! (bi kuan xiu lian) & ya today was my 1st day of callin for appointment fixings, super jia lat also.. i drifted away fr my objective & 50% of my frends whom i called chit chated away wif me.. LoL. Of coz chin siong noticed den he commented on it la xD Guess i mus learn to b more efficient to get things done haha, but tt's my style.. chat chit til off topic lol. Wuld reli b glad if i can do financial plannin for my close frends, at e same time i also dun lik myself being too formal, makes me kinda lik a salesman & very fake, which im not. All in all, i need to prioritize a lot of things fr now on, & my schedule is so packed.. Life is gonna major chn again, whether for e better or worse. E fatal part is i've no time to say i cant adapt to it LoL. Do or die, jus lik my test tonight. Gd luck kelis, & onwards to e future! (hope it's heaven..)

tis post is bout my covocation tt was held on 3rd sept at suntec convention center ballrooms. At 1st i wasn too into it (& im not quite also now lol) but reli admired e clothes. Look so lik "harry potter" lo LoL. E whole event reminds me of harry potter's graduation in e 1st movie, & we were also divided by color similarly. E seniors & e higher status ppl all wore lik wizards lmao. Our principle looked lik a high wizard wif his big robe & hat haha. E event was quite inspirin, not to mention e food~ Yum Yum~ But e photo takin wasn allowed & arranged photo shots were sold at $80 per pic! Daylight robbery man -_- E worst part was e cert collection part, i was quite early to collect on stage, so it took VERY long for all e faculties to collect finish. Half way thru, i slept alseep XD lol (sry those tt were on stage, didn mean any disrespect but i was reli tired out e day b4) & while my parents (esp my mom) kept wantin to tk pic after tt wif me & my hat on.. eee i look so weird in my hat lo! xD Hope nobody gets to c my those pics.. very ugly! xD

i'm sooo happy today~ & last nite~ coz not onli did dear gotten approval to start wrk fr her mom (after ten years of long battle)~ I also gotten my long-awaited license today! Yeah~! 双喜临门! *sooo happy~* B4 tis i was at my lowest alr lo, gettin rejections fr her mom, resultin in more negativity durin TM & also my FFs.. Made me so lose my confidence.. Plus e CM jo & my bro's incident.. Lucki it all came bk gd, guess life is lik an investment, when e chart line goes down, it'll come bk up after sometime :) Reli happy, gotten over all stuffs & wad's lyin ahead is my CM bacarrat & roulette assessment! Plus my startin of my proper wrk now tt i've gotten my lincese~ (but a bit anxious though lol) Was reli kinda lost previously doin endless & aimless TM, PA plus trainin, reli cant c my destination end.. Very demoralizin... Now today so happy~! Yeah yeah~ Finally i can move forward le. My G.R.O.W. is finally in advancement (= V!

5 sources of happiness:
1- pan hui
2- puffy
3- slack
4- food
5- success

5 events that have brought happiness to ur life:
1- my 1st date~
2- dear 1st came fetch me~
3- our very 1st month anniversary~
4- my 1st outing with puffy~
5- my visit to eat express teppan~

5 strengths u think is needed to achieve happiness:
1- a sincere heart
2- a kind soul
3- decent goals
4- never giving up
5- being able to balance sadness

5 weaknesses u think are hinders to achieving happiness:
1- jealousy
2- greed
3- selfishness
4- a wicked mind
5- a clouded mind

5 people u would like to see achieving happiness:
1- pan hui
2- puffy
3- my family
4- my close friends
5- anyone who has a sad past

5 people u would like to tag:
anyone who has read this.. u've just been tagged! haha

ytr (4th sept 08) was 1 of e worst day of my recent life.. nt onli did i got all negative remarks fr my 2 ffs, i also felt peer pressure fr my own bro & jo.. perhaps becoz of my negativity consolidated fr 3rd sept.. den it dragged til today (5th sept) which resulted in many of my rejections in mornin TM. Luckily for me, things took a turn for e better. I was b4hand almost at e edge of mental collapse, fortunately e world isn't as bad as i thought it was. Tis sayin is very true: positive self attracts positive life, & vice versa. But it is also true tt my positivity cant b generated on my own, mayb coz im nt strong enough. But fr accumulated positivity fr others - alex's positive feed backs, sky's refeed back on ytr super jia let's ff, & my 1st TM appointment fixed~ I was gettin more & more on track :) Den things proven to b even better after i went CM practice jus now, i felt lik myself once again - no weird feelins, no awkwardness. Now e onli thing to happen in order to conclude everythin as happy is, for dear to clear her mom's issue :) If tt is settled, life can finally b as positive as i wuld hv always wanted it to b (=

ARE YOU:
►Perfect: nothin is perfect
►Tall: nope
►In your pajamas: dun wear pajamas
►Left handed: nope

LAST:
►Friend you saw: josephine
►Talked to on the phone: pan hui's mom
►Person to text you: pan hui
►Is today better than yesterday: cant c e diff..

FAVORITE:
►Number: 7
►Color: black
►Food: express teppan
►Place: somewhere where i can be myself

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?► wake up
Q: Do you have anything bothering you► yes
Q: Where is the last place you went?► turf city icg
Q: Do you smile a lot?► sometimes
Q: Do you wish upon stars?► last time, now no
Q: Are you a friendly person?► tt's nt up to me to decide
Q: Where did you sleep last night?►my bedroom
Q: Why did you sleep there?► -_-
Q: When was the last time you cried?► long ago
Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?► worryin bout e stuffs i hv to accomplish tmr
Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?► 3, coz of certain things..
Q: What do you hear right now?► a song by Rchord (no. 23) on pan hui's blog
Q: Does anything hurt you right now?► yes
Q: What's your favorite month?► dec, coz got my favorite xmas, & feb as well coz got v day~

EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?► *nods*
Are you single?► nope
Are you tired?► ya, due to many sleepless nights
Are your parents still married?► yes

BASICS:
►Real name? Kelis Tham Chaofeng
►Age? 18!
►Eye color? dark brown
►Male or female? male
►Single? nope
►Crushing? nope
►Smart? haha
►Hair color? black
►Sweats or Jeans? none
►Phone or Camera? camera phone
►Health freak? not at all
►Righty or lefty? Righty
►SMOKE or Drink? smoke no, drink last time yes

FIRSTS:
►First best friend? wei shen ba
►First award? hm... cleaniness award in pri? lol
►First enemy? xiao qiang
►First pet? puffy~!

CURRENTLY:
►Eating? air
►Drinking? hot tea wif milk
►Listening to? pan hui's blog music
►Plans for tomorrow? go intense roulette practice tmr after wrk
►Waiting for? my license to come, & successfully attend e course i wan

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
►Lips or eyes? eye lips
►shorter or taller? shorter
►Romantic or spontaneous? either
►Sensitive or loud? either
►Hook-up or in a relationship? in a relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:
►Drank hard drinks? yes
►Lost glasses/contacts? nope
►Ran away from home? once when i was little
►Broken someone's heart? yes..
►Been arrested? ya, last time when trespassin my sec sch lol

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
►Do you like someone? yes
►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? nope, i'm far fr my goals
►Post as 100 truths about me (YOUR TURN! HAHAHAAHA!)

Im at lost, im being affected so much, even though im trying to hide it. My FF wif Eileen was a disaster, & my bacarrat dealin jus now was as well.. I realised tt e more i try to act tough, e more mistakes i tend to make, & nt to mention my verbal usage also. I was tryin so hard to joke & stay "normal", dunno whether any1 noticed i was actually actin quite awkward jus now. But i bet no1 reli gives a damn la, haha.. (im startin to think negative..) Jus now durin e TM also, i easily get demoralized when simple rejections start comin in.. I dunno.. i need to b firm rite now but i hv to admit tt deep within, im affected. How can i phase it? I dun understand it myself.. I'm startin to b quite negative towards myself, my career, my course, my CM friendships, & everythin else. I need to buck up man. Kelis, u're a MAN hellooo

Today (ytr coz now 2:24am le) learnt a very imprt lesson - y do ppl always tend to see e negative side of ppl, but not e positive side? It's way better to trust a person den to doubt, but y do doubts always come into a person's mind 1st? For eg, a guy sees another guy coverin up his own mistakes, & reli cant stand his way of irresponsiblity in not admittin tt mistake. But if u look fr another angle, y cant u project it tis way (e better way to both u & him) - He is seriously tryin his best to nt repeat tt mistake, which is y coverin it up is another way of ensurin his idea of nt commitin tt same mistake again. U see? It can b sooo negative in e 1st perception, but jus a simple injection of trust & faith in a person can chn a LOT of things. Reality isn't as ugly as ppl assume it to be. Although i understand tis concept, I cant help myself fr fallin into e trap every now & den. Must adjust my perception more. Reality can only b as cruel as u wan it to b.

Back to e leisure topics, today (ytr) went to a club near changi village recommended by Mr Ang to play bowlin~ So fun (= I fr so many long kangs chn to some Strikes & many Spares. Yeah yeah~ Josephine kept long kanging, til we told her e logic of "feel". Feel e ball, feel e roll, it'll decide where ur ball'll go. & she caught it! Only a few times though lol (e rest still long kang morathon lmao). Winston was power lo, & also Mr Ang. Winston's ball was lik MRT lik tt, got e echoin rollin & vibratin sound -_- Very power (confirm played a lot last time lo). Den Mr Ang no need to c alr, more pro, can c his exp in e sport. My bro also veri funny lo, his ball rollin method still got hand signs de, showin 4 fingers straight out on his back hand which looked sooo weird -_- LoL (but he did managed to get quite a lot of pts wif tt "pose" though..)

After tt went to Geylang to makan, Winston & Xiao Qing & Mr Ang ate "tian ji" (frog).. eeee. I dun dare to try although it smelled nice. Den on e discussion we tok bout how we came about, y r u in tis world, rite here rite now & nt somewhere else? I personally believe tt there is no coincidence in tis world, everythin has a purpose, & it is onli natural tt all these purposes result in e natural order of things, which most ppl believe is decided by fate. While, all i can say is, nth can go out of e cycle, u can onli follow ur fate, but wat u can chn is ur destiny. I once heard a very meaningful quote tt goes lik tis: "U make decisions, but in turn, e decisions make u." In life u make decisions everyday, & these decisions will end up makin e you tmr. Now, an evil decision'll make u evil tmr, while many decisions for gd deeds will make u of gd faith overtime. It's a matter of ur choice, u choose to b who u wan to be. Also mentioned e topic of e planets wif my bro & josephine jus now on car. E whole universe is so mysterious & wonderful. Men can nvr learn enough to master everything. When u look up into e clear sky, there r so many stars & so many planets but yet there might b more. We r onli of tis planet, yet beyond e sky we can c so much.. E world can indeed b wonderfully mysterious sometimes.. (= ok la End of topic~ time to go sleep~! need to wake up early tmr to go go my gown collection :)