Im at lost, im being affected so much, even though im trying to hide it. My FF wif Eileen was a disaster, & my bacarrat dealin jus now was as well.. I realised tt e more i try to act tough, e more mistakes i tend to make, & nt to mention my verbal usage also. I was tryin so hard to joke & stay "normal", dunno whether any1 noticed i was actually actin quite awkward jus now. But i bet no1 reli gives a damn la, haha.. (im startin to think negative..) Jus now durin e TM also, i easily get demoralized when simple rejections start comin in.. I dunno.. i need to b firm rite now but i hv to admit tt deep within, im affected. How can i phase it? I dun understand it myself.. I'm startin to b quite negative towards myself, my career, my course, my CM friendships, & everythin else. I need to buck up man. Kelis, u're a MAN hellooo