ytr (4th sept 08) was 1 of e worst day of my recent life.. nt onli did i got all negative remarks fr my 2 ffs, i also felt peer pressure fr my own bro & jo.. perhaps becoz of my negativity consolidated fr 3rd sept.. den it dragged til today (5th sept) which resulted in many of my rejections in mornin TM. Luckily for me, things took a turn for e better. I was b4hand almost at e edge of mental collapse, fortunately e world isn't as bad as i thought it was. Tis sayin is very true: positive self attracts positive life, & vice versa. But it is also true tt my positivity cant b generated on my own, mayb coz im nt strong enough. But fr accumulated positivity fr others - alex's positive feed backs, sky's refeed back on ytr super jia let's ff, & my 1st TM appointment fixed~ I was gettin more & more on track :) Den things proven to b even better after i went CM practice jus now, i felt lik myself once again - no weird feelins, no awkwardness. Now e onli thing to happen in order to conclude everythin as happy is, for dear to clear her mom's issue :) If tt is settled, life can finally b as positive as i wuld hv always wanted it to b (=